I think its time.

I wrote this a month ago before I decided to start my blog and I believe that it is finally time to post this...and so Ill tell you my thoughts on life...which alot of people talk about...

"laitly Ive been thinking, and I know thats unusual. laugh at me all you want, but what really is our place on this planet? We have generally short lives that usually lead to nothing. no changes, no huge world known obligation to the exspance of space or time. (yes I know, sue me) we truly are useless. Maybe this is because Ive never actually believed in god, maybe because I cant comit myself to the belief in anything, spiritual or otherwise. Perhaps I think this way because of my difficult childhood, Im not sure, Im not even sur if Psycologists would even understand....the only thing I do know Is that there is a distinct diference in these two emotions. love, and lust...(I know what my parents are going to say about this...) They are NOT the same. otherwise I'd be lustfull tward some of my family members....and thats just plain ICK facter of 300. (and elisa says: "says you" my reaction is "ewww...") With love, It exists in the enjoyment of ones company, knowing that as long as that person Is alive you'll do your best to keep them happy, and that you want them around. love of corse can be broken. It can be reversed, while lust usually never goes away...Ill admit that they go hand in hand, love and lust, and that when your in love with someone you usually want to have more then just mental contact....(laughs) but that just my thought. Ive met meny people who Ive felt love twards, some have taught me how to smile, a few have shown my what a true family should be like, and one has taught me how to be patient. without him I might not be sane right now. or I might be running away at every chance I get. with alot for these people I never wanted to be near them. I was even scared of some of them.  and still am. that is how my theory came about. Another thing I would like to mention is "not being old enough to love someone" I dont think there is an age limit to these kind of things. Otherwise kids would never love their parents, or their "blanky" or their friends...how ever little they may have.... I wouldnt have my 'winnie the pooh' blanket If I didnt love it. ( I know I'm not a little kid...I shouldn't still sleep with it....but I do...I cant help it!) so yes. love is just that. and lust is just that. DONT GET THEM CONFUSED!"

I know.. that was probably just a score of rambling on my part but at the time I was annoied. and thought that I might as well let everyone know how I felt on that subject. sadly that I all I have to rant about but I do have some daily things to tell you about.

I stayed home today because of acid reflex..I still don't feel well but hopefully Ill feel well enough to draw the next page of 'DEMON DOLL' which is a side story to ambers and my manga 'AliVicky' which isnt the name... but Im sure we'll find a name for it soon.

I love you all and hope you have a good nights rest.

a little ranting

Because of the routines we follow, we often forget tht life is an ongoing adventure. We leave our homes for work, acting and even beleaving that we will reach our destinations with no unusual event startling us out of our set exspectations. The truth is we know nothing, not where our cars will fail or when our buses will stall, whether our places of employment will be there when we arrive or whether even we ourselves will arrive whole and alive at the end of our journies. Life is pure adventure, and the sooner we realise that, the quicker we will be able to treat life as art: to bring all of our energies to each encounter, to remain flexible enough to notice and admit when what we exspected to happen did not happen. we need to remember that we are creative beings and can invent new scenarios as frequantly as needed.

I would like everyone to know: Money and power can liberate only if they are used to do so. They can imprison and inhibit more finally then barred windows and iron chains

Morning Rush

My first post ended sadly. and so I should tell you a bit about myself. Ive four older siblings and four younger siblings. four of which are step, two are half. Im aiming for a masters in frensics, and chemistry. my favorite colors are blue, green and black. my parents got devorced when I was 14, and my mother is schizophrenic. my step mom has fibro, but she still works hard. Im not a huge fan of much TV or Electronics. but I love cars. I've four major habits that can be annoing to most people.
1.I drink Mountain Dew like a drug.
2.I dissagree with almost everything and anything that people try to force on me, wheather it be openly or delibrately.
3.I tend not to give a "patooty" what others think of me. Which leads to alot of enemies for me.
AND
4.I can be rude, dissrespectful, lazy, ignorant, childish, and a strait up bad person. so kill me bury me 6 feet under and then kick my grave stone. but thats who I am respect me and I'll do my best for you.

As a few of you know. Last night was the first night I slept in my "bedroom". Conceitedly my lovely family sat down to a scary movie. for those of you who know me you know my attitude to frights and monsters under the bed. I have a farely bad reaction.... and so I spent a good 3/4 of last night waking up to every noise. Fun, excluding the wall-less exspance that is the area I sleep in...

and now I have run low on things to rant about. and so good day and I hope you all do well.

a good start

To start I guess my name would suffice... Hi I'm Leah, that's not my full name but it works. By impulse I decided to start a blog. my father had one, and my brother. so, I figured my own would be a nice idea. saddly, being its so late at night I figure I wont post much. but as this is the beginning of many posts I feel enlighened to at least get started.