I wrote this a month ago before I decided to start my blog and I believe that it is finally time to post this...and so Ill tell you my thoughts on life...which alot of people talk about...
"laitly Ive been thinking, and I know thats unusual. laugh at me all you want, but what really is our place on this planet? We have generally short lives that usually lead to nothing. no changes, no huge world known obligation to the exspance of space or time. (yes I know, sue me) we truly are useless. Maybe this is because Ive never actually believed in god, maybe because I cant comit myself to the belief in anything, spiritual or otherwise. Perhaps I think this way because of my difficult childhood, Im not sure, Im not even sur if Psycologists would even understand....the only thing I do know Is that there is a distinct diference in these two emotions. love, and lust...(I know what my parents are going to say about this...) They are NOT the same. otherwise I'd be lustfull tward some of my family members....and thats just plain ICK facter of 300. (and elisa says: "says you" my reaction is "ewww...") With love, It exists in the enjoyment of ones company, knowing that as long as that person Is alive you'll do your best to keep them happy, and that you want them around. love of corse can be broken. It can be reversed, while lust usually never goes away...Ill admit that they go hand in hand, love and lust, and that when your in love with someone you usually want to have more then just mental contact....(laughs) but that just my thought. Ive met meny people who Ive felt love twards, some have taught me how to smile, a few have shown my what a true family should be like, and one has taught me how to be patient. without him I might not be sane right now. or I might be running away at every chance I get. with alot for these people I never wanted to be near them. I was even scared of some of them. and still am. that is how my theory came about. Another thing I would like to mention is "not being old enough to love someone" I dont think there is an age limit to these kind of things. Otherwise kids would never love their parents, or their "blanky" or their friends...how ever little they may have.... I wouldnt have my 'winnie the pooh' blanket If I didnt love it. ( I know I'm not a little kid...I shouldn't still sleep with it....but I do...I cant help it!) so yes. love is just that. and lust is just that. DONT GET THEM CONFUSED!"
I know.. that was probably just a score of rambling on my part but at the time I was annoied. and thought that I might as well let everyone know how I felt on that subject. sadly that I all I have to rant about but I do have some daily things to tell you about.
I stayed home today because of acid reflex..I still don't feel well but hopefully Ill feel well enough to draw the next page of 'DEMON DOLL' which is a side story to ambers and my manga 'AliVicky' which isnt the name... but Im sure we'll find a name for it soon.
I love you all and hope you have a good nights rest.